Moral obligations

maybe morality did come from morons?

Today, I attended a session by a social worker in a nursing home.

Well, she was sharing about the financial assistance that they offered, and she gave a case scenario for discussion.

An elderly lady has 2 daughters who both earn about 1k per month and both has a teenager child to take care of. Though its difficult to fork out anymore cash due to the fact that both earn very low income, daughter A has decided to try to come out with $200 per month because "she is my mother", whereas daughter B simply refuse to come out with anything. The social worker then asked, "should we help this resident then?"

So I proposed that we should see what are the reasons why daughter B refused to pay. It could be due to the fact that the mother hasn't treated her well in the past and tt's why she refused to have anything to do with her mother anymore.

I was "challenged" with "if everyone who has a sour past relationship with their parents will come to us and say because of that they don't want to pay, are we supposed to pay for everyone?"

Which, I don't deny. To cut the story short, later on she went on to say things like she will tell the daughter B that the nursing home is not related to the resident but they're helping. If she doesn't want to help as a daughter, just pay as a form of "moral obligation".

I felt like telling at her, "you obviously haven't been through tt's why you can say that", but I held back.

Well if I'm daughter B and u tell me things like "nursing home is not related but we still help" and "help as moral obligation", I will be damn offended. You've never been through the phase whereby you have to spend your scholarship to pay the bills at home when you're still young, and you have to grow up faster than your peers because you have to learn to read bills, pay for the household stuffs, work harder to pay for anything and everything, all because you have a good-for-nothing parent. Well after going through all these and more, you expect me to pay out of "moral obligation" and that even "a not related nursing home" can do more than the blood-related daughter, sorry, I can't do it. In fact, I will be even more angry and walk out altogether.

Ahh, I guess different people has got different perceptions and thus see things differently. But I believe people who never been through it will never understand how difficult it is and thus, may never empathise why people refuse to care for their parents anymore when they're old.

Some people has never let go of the hatred in their lives, and even till the deathbed of that particular parent, they may still never feel any regret. Well it could be because of all that they've been through, or simply because that "good-for-nothing" parent never changed for the better. Whatever it is, the resentment is there and after years of being let down, suddenly you have to take care of the needs of this parent again, its difficult.

Its so easy to judge a person as unfilial when they refuse to take care of the parent, send them to nursing home and don't pay for their care. But what lies behind the strong refusal to have anything to do with the parent, is something that we should always see first before being so quick to point fingers at others.

Time for work, time for play :)

Today is back to work with Monday blues..

Went to a new place today for attachment. SOO much better than my previous area! Was positively culture shocked by all the technology used. But the staff there said its bad. Well, try working in my stone age area, maybe u will prefer technology. Hahaha. Pretty nice, I'm quite expectant of my next 2 weeks here :).

The only problem is my poor sense of direction, and it really sucks. The layout of the area is round, and I keep getting "lost". So silly. And the place is not even big! Everytime I emerge from somewhere, I don't know which part of the circle I'm at anymore -_-. I think I've asked M so many times where's the toilet, where's the tea room, where's my assigned area, where's the exit etc etc. Goodness. "Kudos" to my "splendid" sense of direction. Haha.

Oh well, work is tiring, dreading. But silly things like these makes me smile at work :).

After work, I come home staring at all those ASSes again, and I feel tired. I don't feel like doing 'em at all, yet I know I don't quite have a choice.. Sighs..

The only thing I'm looking forward to, is the short trip to Genting with OH on the good Friday long weekend :). Yipeee! Its my first time to Genting (yes, call me suaku!) and I anticipate alot of fun!! :):) I also anticipate getting lost. Hurhur. So I shall stick closely to OH with superglue.

I'm quite excited for it, and that seem to be the only thing I'm looking forward to thus far. Actually wanted to go Bangkok but the tix are sooo ex during that period! With flight and accomodations + taxes, one person, cheapest we found was $435/pax.. Totally not worth it. So we went for Genting instead, hope it'll be good :).

Mommy (actually is my primary school teacher who said mommy. My mom don't say this.) always says, "there's a time to work and there's a time to play." I'm looking forward to play and not work! >_<..

Okok I shall go back to work! :(

Fatigue.

I think human beings are hard to please.

When we're working, we wished we are students.

When we're students, we wished we are working.

Now that I'm a student AND working (attachment), I wished that I'm doing neither. HAHA.

Aiyoo so tired! I think I've lost the working pace after 3 months of sedentary full-time schooling Well its not really sedentary but at least we sit in classroom, snack and use brain power, nothing physical.

Previously I was able to do a proper, hectic morning shift, STANDING (can't quite sit!), and without the need to even go for my break. Yet after work I can go swim with bf, makan with colleagues or go shopping with Ms Ang. Now, after 2 consecutive morning shifts, with full 1hr break (can go hawker centre with lecturer makan somemore) I went home with a headache and sheer fatigue. My plan to go for a short jog was screwed by my sore feet.

I'm DECONDITIONING. Functional decline secondary to SCHOOL! Goodness. I need rehabilitation!

ARRRGHH..

I'M ON DUTY THIS WEEKEND AGAIN!!
I'M ON DUTY NEXT WEEKEND AGAIN!!
AND I'M ON WEEKEND NIGHT YET AGAIN!!!

WHAT THE HELL.

This is just crap la. When can I EVER get another weekend off?!?!?!?

As if this is not enough, yet another thing to Argh about:

MY OH IS OVERSEAS ON V-DAY!! :'(.

I'm certainly looking like the baby in the picture, albeit more less cute. Er hem. Sighs.

I feel that my life is so sad. Hahaha. But NEVERMIND. I'll probably go for an ex colleague's wedding, then maybe da bao some nice makan back for my another colleague who's on call if time permits :). V-day is not just about me and OH, but everyone around me too ;). Hehe.

Okay Cin, stop whining, go and sleep. Tmr is AM shift....... (SIAN)

WEEKEND ON AGAIN

Grrrrrr. I keep having to work on weekends! I hate this :(.

For how many weekends I've been working alr. But I don't want to request, cuz if I keep requesting weekends off, I won't get the chance to take the off next time lo.

Request also no use la. I requested a day off for 16th cuz my other half (OH) is off. THEN I was scheduled to go for some talk and be an usher, given official hours somemore. Best.

Grrrr.. I just want more weekends off, or at least give me one off one AM shift or something like that la. Very sad. Especially when my OH is a 5-day workweek person! Hmmm :(

Ahh just want to whine. Going to sleep soon. Yes tmr is Saturday and I'm working AM shift. While everyone is snoozing their heads off and waking up late, I've gotta be up at 4.45am to prepare. ARGH!!!! >_<

Complain complain! >_<

Miracles...

Thanks for all your prayers. If you were following my Facebook blog, you may have noted about my cousin's incident. Thank God, his condition has got SLIGHT improvements. Just slight. At least the BP and ICP has stabilised more or less, and he's no longer having a fever. Of cuz, we're all hoping for miracles to happen :). PRAY!

Am thankful also, that the drunk driver (ARGH! SCREW HIM!!!) got caught. As to what sentence, I'm not too sure. It better be a heavy sentence. He better come to the neuro ICU and have a good look at what he has done to an innocent life. He ought to feel guilty..

Well, I'm just hoping good things will happen, and will continue to happen. I'd rather he wakes up and rehab for 1 yr back to at least 75% of premorbid status than to stay like that... Of cuz medically we know that may be impossible, BUT, we shall see :)

Sad things aside, I'm still quite excited over a new inclusion in my life: a Lenovo s10 laptop!!! :)

(I lazy to take photos la :D)

After hunting for months and contemplating over a Kohjinsha laptop, Asus Eee PC and many other mini laptops, I finally decide to get this Lenovo S10 after getting my bonus (which is like peanuts?!), and I'm loving it! :)

Its not REALLY very small, but considerably small la (10" only :)!). I love how sleek it is and the best part, I got a free upgrade of RAM to 2.5GB and a free laptop bag! :D. The only thing now is, I REALLY NEED THE MICROSOFT OFFICE. Any kind souls? :).

Now I'm trying to back up my things in a little thumb drive of mine, and I think I'm really silly looking. Forget it, I shall hunt for a portable HD! :D

The only flaw about this laptop is the keyboard. Its already bigger compared to other mini laptops, but I have a problem typing the ! cuz I kept typing @ instead of ! :D. Haha. The mini laptop with one of the most impressive keyboards is HP mini, but wells I don't like the spects so nahh :D. Haha.

Okay I shall go to bed alr. My whole Christmas is ruined by a stupid shitty roster, so I really need my beauty sleep now! :D

"Professionalism"

With regards to my previous post, thanks for all the concern. Eventually I DID get to sit in my supervisor's office, but not for what happened that day. In fact, whatever happened that day seem to have gone with the wind. She didn't say a single thing. Nobody said a single thing, in fact.

So, I was being ticked at for being too childish. Grrr.

Feedback from the ground:

"Orh! She's that childish girl right!"
"Too kiddy."
"Too jumpy."
"Too giggly."

I made a face when she told me that I need to be more professional when I put on the uniform. In fact, I looked down and pout. I hope she didn't see it, though :D.

Aiya, I'm acting my age what. Nobody can deny the fact that I'm STILL, the youngest in my department. I'm not even 21! In fact, I just turned 20 today! (Happy birthday to me. HAHA.) I'm still full of zest and youth :D. Why must I act old? :(

There's a stark difference between professionalism and youth, in my opinion. Okay la, I admit sometimes I do jump around too much. But that's only sometimes ma... Not like I always jump around in front of my clients or their relatives -_-. I mean, I know when to do the right thing. Or at least I THINK I know.

Perhaps its my turn to reflect on myself. :D

Yes yes yes. PRRROOOOfesionalism okay.... Bahh!

AGAIN.

For the nth time in these 3 weeks, my name has been appearing in the "message book" of my work place, been called up on my hp at least 2 times by my supervisor and has sat in my supervisor's office for "coffee" at least 3 times...

Message book is like the forum of my workplace. Everything that u want to highlight to the department will be written in the message book. Messages will be passed down every shift to ensure EVERYONE knows what's the latest happenings.

Anyways something happened again and I was called up by my supervisor on my way home. Scared the poop outta my life. I'm almost certain my name is in the message book, and my supervisor's office will be my next place to go (again).

I warm up the seat in my supervisor's office before anyone sits on it....

WHY?! I don't understand why am I still making blunders like these u know. Initially I was "made famous" in the message book for documentation errors, fair enough. I've paid up my "fines", I've made ammendments and I've been quite careful.

THEN kena documentation error AGAIN. Corrective actions done. Got scolded bad bad by my own supervisor and another supervisor who chose to publicise my wrong deeds. Sighs. Have been diligently updating my supervisor with happenings in the department whenever she calls and wheverer she asked.

THEN things happen again today! I told her almost everything that happened except for this as I didn't think it was something I need to inform her. Turns out that its a "big issue" and I almost got myself into deep poop. Just thank God the results came back okay, but tmr I'll be receiving a big trashing from my supervisor...

Very demoralising can :(. I already don't know what is considered "important" and what is not now. I'm confused at the things I should tell my supervisor and the things I don't need to. Just because of this one incident, the things that I diligently told sister was perceived as redundant, and I was penalised for that.

Bug also wrong, don't bug also wrong. What am I supposed to do?! How long more will I stop making errors?!

I find that the more I want to prove myself capable and worthy, the more I make mistakes. What is happening???

Here I am!

I think I need to blog more here :D.

Due to this blog being so public, and since I've gotten myself into trouble with my previous blog, I don't really dare to reveal my occupation in this blog. So I've set up many blogs elsewhere where I blog my work happenings, my private thoughts, etc. So much so that I neglected this blog! Sorry cincinnati :(.

So here I am, blogging once again :)! Welcome back!

Back to the blogging proper, I've finally recover from my cold! :) Thank God! Finally got back my voice and CAN FINALLY HIT THE KTV! :) My goodness. Was SO crippled by the lost of voice and the cough from the cold!

Rather interestingly, from this cold, I then found out that I've got a trademark laughter -_-.

I was on the phone with one of the clients' family members. Although I introduced myself, but probably due to the fact that I was speaking too fast, she didn't catch my name. Later on in the convo, I laughed at something she said, and she went, "are you the one that I always speak to?" I went, "ermm, I think I am? Haha. Why?" And she went:

"I couldn't recognise u at first cuz your voice was so bad. But when you laughed, I immediately can recognise it. Your laughter very cute."

I burst out laughing can! That was so funny. I have never heard such comment about my laughter before. I took that as a compliment :). Hahah :D. At least I've developed this trademark laughter of mine over the years :D. Keke.

Oh wells :D.

Occupational hazards

Nope, not self mutilation. Don't worry, I'm still quite sane :).

Sustained this from work from my client.

Considering the fact that I've been bitten, whacked and kicked before, such grab marks and scratch marks are considered mild.

Now Mr/Miss >.<, do you understand why we call these people "Monkey"?

Obviously its against my will to degrade these individuals to animals, but due to them being mentally incapacitated, they tend to do things like THESE to us. Obviously, I don't bear any grudge cuz they probably didn't even know they did those things. But please allow us to at least vent some frustrations on what I call a personal space of mine ;)

These are only the physical aspects.. I have not counted in those emotional hazards!

That's why, I shall from now on call ourselves, SUPERWOMEN :).

STRESSSSSSS..

Felt like I'm having some prematured mid-life crisis..

Have been feeling this burden, this big fat stress that's weighing me down. This weight that's crushing my hopes, my dreams, my joy and everything nice.

I've been totally stressed out by all that's happening in my workplace and all. Seriously, even on leave, I'm receiving emails upon emails about the changes that are happening in my workplace DAILY. I can't believe how much my workplace has changed just over the span of mere 2 weeks.


The fact is that Monday I'll have to return to this workplace of mine with a brand new routine to start with, and many new things that has changed over the 2 weeks.


Returned to my workplace on Wed to be horrified by how everyone is rushing to get things done cuz of the change of routine. Something that was usually being done at 1pm is now being done at 3pm. Its 2 hours late! Everyone is trying to catch up.


So on Monday, I have to deal with the new routine, PLUS the audit. And this week, I still have to read up on all the policies that has been changing again and again. Can u imagine, 1 policy can have like 3 changes in 2 weeks alone -_- And I was totally unaware. I hate the feeling of not being in control.


Met up with LBB on Thurs, am totally glad that at least we have ONE person who can understand what we're going through. Really need more of such sympathetic people around. I think we'll have a better working life..


I feel, unless u come to take a look at how we work, you will never understand how much we go through, cuz to everyone, my occupation is so menial. But if you really work in MY workplace, you will understand why we're making a big fuss. Its not just dealing with clients and their family, but its dealing with the SUPERVISORS and the top top TOP people :(.


Yes, you can say in every job its like that. But ever been in such a state whereby everyday you have to stay back, but you don't have the right to ask for OT pay. Even paying back of hours, no, no rights. You do things that are not within your job description, YET you still have to do, cuz the supervisor says so. Before confirmation, probation was constantly used as a threat to make us work. After confirmation, counselling and appraisals were constantly used as threats to make us work. Every single day so long as supervisors are on duty, you get to drink some verbal coffee in her office. Morale? Since when this thing ever exist in my occupation?


As if work stress is not enough, I still have to deal with my boys who are having O levels, and the numbers that never seem to be growing. Plus upcoming outreach events, planning for more more MORE.


I really can't cope anymore. And I'm ON LEAVE. I can't imagine when I start work. I think at this rate I move on, I'll be choked by all these stressors soon.


Heard of "chronic fatigue symptom"?

Today during cg, Estelle shared about Joshua and how God always encourages him to be strong and courageous. I felt blessed by the word, really. But I'm not sure how long more can I be strong and courageous. Battery flat alr la :(

God, help me to fight the good fight of faith!

I HATE AUDITS

Yesterday as I was enjoying the last few moments of my leave in front of my com, I received some emails from my senior regarding the audit that's coming up and driving everyone crazy.

Suddenly I remember, oh ya, audit is coming. Lemme just be a good girl and read through the updates, at least when I return to work, I can answer questions when my supervisor ask me.

I was still in the happy dreamland of mine, until I stretch out and got my hands on my roster, and man. I've never felt so horrified before.

After 2 weeks of leave, my first day of work will be AUDIT DAY.

And I'm scheduled to work a PM shift, and the auditors are coming in the AFTERNOON.

Hur. Hur hur.

I don't know how I'm gonna die.

I stared hard at that thick stack of notes, policies, updates and random nonsense that was left unread since the start of my AL, I've never felt as exasperated before in my entire life.

Today I caught up with the dearest poly girlfriend of mine, WC (:D) at Suki Sushi. Enjoyed a scrumptious (is there such a word? But this word looks yummy to me) sushi buffet, and window shopped for my D&D dress. Had lots of fun, laughter and everything nice just by meeting her up. Held her hands and walked around just like how we did during poly days. Man, I really miss school days man :(.

After we parted, I attempted to avoid the reality, but this devilish voice went, "AUDIT is coming. AUDIT is coming. AUDIT is coming..." and I have no choice but to whipppp out the thick stack of notes that I psycho-ed myself to bring out, and studied studiously in the train like some nerd. AHHH!

I HATE IT!!!!

I better be able to answer all the questions. How about, audit better hurry end, so that this nightmare can end too!

*Clasps hands together*
Lord, I pray that the auditors will...

• Step on a banana skin and fall.
• Ate something wrong and get gastroenteritis.
• Met with some car accident and have to settle all the nonsense so can't come.
• Got up from the wrong side of bed and get a bad neck.
• Met Doraemon on the way and somehow disappear into Jurassic times.
• Accidentally made their way to the wrong workplace.
• Accidentally drive into the bermuda triangle.
• Saw great singapore sale selling LV/prada for 10bucks and decide to shop instead!
• Met fairy godmother and turn them into a mouse.
• Decide that "its enough!" and tender resignation.
• or.. or...

WHATEVER THAT WILL MAKE THEM DISAPPEAR!!

God, forgive me for being evil :(.

ARGH! See, its driving me CRAZY!! >_<..!!

Night duties..

As you can tell from my previous posts, my job is one that requires shift work. So obviously I'll need to work night shift.

PTL, I've completed yet another round of 3 night duties!! Phew :D.

As my workplace is undergoing renovation, its really very taxing for the past 3 nights. Every night the layout of my workplace is different. My last night I had to walk up and down as the middle section is undergoing renovation -_-. Grrr.

Thank God, it's been quite an uneventful night shift :). Its, in fact, very free. Due to the renovation works, we're rather limited, so can't do much. Basically, I finished most of my routine 1hour before time. We were so bored that we kept eating. Even ordered Macs :D. Hehe :). Really gotta munch to keep ourselves awake man.

Oh wells.

Enough of boring work happenings.

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I'm rather appalled by how man (alright, I shall not generalise, but if u think u fit into this category, please do something about it) works. Have been having enough of men intriguing me like that. Hahaha.

Example 1: "Lets meet up soon alright?"

Then when I initiated the meetup.....

"Not free."
"Girlfriend."
"Family."
"Gotta work early tmr."
"Tired from work."

I never realised how much of a pest that is. I was once like that. I shall never be someone like that anymore.

If you can't meet me, just say you're busy for now. Don't try to make me happy by saying, "we gotta meet up soon!" so excitedly and the soon never come.

Example 2: When something happens, he wants to appease the person (alright, I'm THAT person -_-).

Told another friend.
Another friend have to come and tell me that he wants to meet.
Waited, no calls, no sms, no apologies.
Suddenly morning, my friend told me that he told me to join them for breakfast.
Tagged along.
Sat at back seat like a complete stranger.
By then I was too angry to enjoy breakfast even. Sulked the entire breakfast, went home and slept.

HOW TO APPEASE LIKE THAT?!

Example 3: The Girlfriend Law.

Previously lots of fun hanging out.
Then suddenly with the addition of girlfriend, things change.

I've got no qualms about that. I wouldn't like my boyfriend to hang out with other girls all the time also (no, I'm not possessive.).

BUT. You don't SUDDENLY:
Disappear into thin air
Act very coldly with no rhyme or reason
or keep pushing me away without telling me why.

If your girlfriend is not happy with you hanging out with me, just tell me. I'm not an unreasonable person please.

Anyways I'm not the type of person who will want ur undivided attention when I know you're attached. But in my opinion, it doesn't mean that being attached means u gotta cut off ties with other people of opposite gender. Can't we meet up for a cuppa coffee to catch up?!

That's but only part one of the GF law.

Part 2 --> When girlfriend got angry and nasty, or things are on the verge of turning ugly, you SUDDENLY resurface after some time of magical disappearing act. Excuse me, I'm not some counselling machine that you can find anywhere along the streets.

Part 3 --> I was nice to want to help, so I did. And there was a happy ending to your relationship. THEN here comes the magical disappearing act again.


*Shakes head in disbelief*

I wonder what's in the mind of MAN. Anyways the above mentioned examples are all on different people. Not just one okay!

Alright, enough of venting frustrations. I think I can have a good sleep tonight :)

(:

I think the Lord is really great.

Seriously last night I couldn't sleep the entire night cuz of everything that happened (not just the feedbacks). Hardly caught a wink, and before I knew it, it was time to get up for work.

So on my way to work I kept praying for strength and joy, that I'll be less demoralised by everything that happened. The Lord showed my Psalm 71. I mean many parts apply to me alot, (except the gray-headed part! :D), and I felt so encouraged :)

And I was all ready to work (though I was still physically sleepy)!

So the day went on well, and it was almost time for handover when my supervisor came and said that she wants to speak to all of us, and will be asking questions regarding the audit (again!). She even asked me to stay back to do cleaning despite telling her I had to go church. Grrr..

But anw, she started asking questions. Then I realised she's asking from a set of notes that one of my seniors emailed to me 2 days ago and I read everything through so I know the answers ;). So when she asked, I could answer everything properly. She was quite pleased with me eventually, so she let me go off without doing cleaning! :). Ptl :)

So yepps, managed to rush in time for svc. Then fellowship at MS Xin Wang, then home.

I'm seriously tired now, but testimonies are meant to be shared, so I came online to tell about God's goodness! Hehe :).


Lord pls pass me pass me PASS MY PROBATION!! :S

Demoralized...

Today is a demoralizing day.

Was being asked into my supervisor's office for a talk. I was given my feedback regarding my probation as its coming to an end. She said:

• My probation may be extended.
• The feedback abt me from the ground is not good.
• I didn't help around and I was only doing my own work.
• I'm defensive, the way I speak portray the image of me being defensive.
• I'm only "okay." when asked around about my performance.
• I'm too giggly and not professional.

I tell you, apart from the last feedback which was quite true, I was very taken aback by the comment. So taken aback, that when she asked, "do you have anything to say?", I couldn't answer her at all. I was flabbergasted by that surge of bad feedbacks..

Eventually I mustered my strength and told her how I felt and all, I couldn't take it and I cried. I guess (I hope) she realised I've been trying really hard alr cuz its not the first time I'm being called in to talk. She just patted me on my shoulder and asked me don't cry, that she was just kidding abt the extending of probation and asked me to go back to work.

Sighs.

Firstly, nobody has ever feedback to me that I never helped. In fact, I DO help, for nuts! When my side is lighter, I do junior work also! Unless I'm really busy, if not I'll help one lor... I feel that if u think I don't help you, u come and tell me straight. Why must u escalate to the supervisor level? And the best part, when my probation is coming to an end.. Why must u jeopardize my probation like that?

Secondly, I've already toned down on my defensive nature. Learnt it the hard way, very very hard way. People who knew me would have known how many moments I cried just because of the kind of trouble I get from being defensive. Seems like ytd I accidentally said something that upset my another supervisor, plus another day when I tried to clarify a certain issue to a senior staff and she got upset, and now I'm being deemed, "defensive".

Thirdly, I didn't know "okay" is a bad feedback. Sighs...

I tell you, for the whole shift I couldn't work. Somemore I was being turned down by a colleague (whom I've been trying to get to know as a friend) when I asked him out to visit a client. First an outright embarrassment, then an outright disappointment...

God, why did such thing happen to me? Am I THAT lousy? I know I'm not there yet, but is my interpersonal skills THAT bad? I really couldn't believe it.

I'm only glad that somehow somewhat I've got people around to hear me out. My seniors were there to assure me that I'm not that bad. I guess that's enough. Now most importantly is that I want to pass my probation.... I really don't want to fail. Sighs...

Gather my strength and return to work.

I really wish I could remove that mask of mine and display who I really am. Why must I be the someone whom I'm not? I love to smile. But now my smiles are getting more and more fake by the day...

December babies

Today, upon reaching my workplace (I'm not gonna talk about the impromptu audit that took place at the middle of the staircase while walking to work.), one of the girls, EL, a student who's doing her internship came and told me something rather interesting and cute :).

She asked, "hey Cincinnati, are u a December baby?"

I was, of cuz, surprised. I don't know her really well at all, how did she know my birthday? But I replied, "yepps! How did u know?"

So she went, "Oh cuz E (her instructor) commented that I'm very vocal, just like you. So I told her, 'of cuz! December babies are all vocal!', so I thought I'll ask u."

And the best part, we compared how we used to be like and how we are now, I spotted much resemblence!! :).

Due to our outspoken nature, we were very loud and noisy, especially when we were younger. But we mellowed down when we became older. And also because of that nature in us, we tend to force people to do things that we like so that we can be happy. I was like that in the past, just like her! But we both mellowed down when we grew up.

I find it quite interesting. I never quite knew that of December babies!

Then I thought through, its quite true. Like so far most of the December babies I know are quite vocal to a certain extent. Is it really true? Sets me thinking.. :).

Anw. Today I took some left over laxatives (don't ask me why I took them). And I realise it didn't work on me. Hmm. My tummy is gone case alr la.

I'm supposed to post photos of what I did ytd during my day off with my beloved Mantoonmee, but I'm quite lazy to do that now. Maybe another day. But the jeeze of it all:

- Lunch from 1.30pm to 2.30pm
- KBox from 2.30pm to 6.15pm.
- KFC from 6.25pm to 6.40pm.
- "Money Not Enough II" from 6.45pm to 9pm.
- Camwhoring on the train till home :).

I love my Mantoonmee. Hehe. And I worked with her today! So fun :D. Laugh and laugh. Gossip about S, gossip about LY. HAHAHA. So fun :).

Physically drained, mentally joyful

I slept less than 3 hours and have been on the go for the past 36hours (and still counting!)

Was working afternoon shift ytd, and was told that audit will be today! My gosh. I thought audit was Friday!

I panicked like mad. So last night, after a LONG afternoon shift (and got into a whole lot of laughter running in the rain and running after the bus that I nv get on, eventually..), I stayed up till 2am to study my policies and woke up early at 4.30am to prep for a new morning shift today..

And thankfully, THE AUDIT DIDN'T COME AGAIN :D!!!

Don't know to thank God or not, but somehow, I nv quite get to be audited! :D. They kept saying that the auditors are coming coming, even had a time (1pm), but eventually they didn't come during my shift :). Hehe. Thank God :D.

But that also meant that I wasted my energy last night! Grrr.

And after work today I still met up with the boys to settle some stuffs for cg. I just got home not long ago after settling the things + shopping. HAHA. I nv knew the boys are so nice to shop with, esp T :D. Not bad not bad :).

So, I'm gonna turn in early tonight! My body is giving way alr. I don't want to get myself into unnecessary health problems caused by fatigue!

The only thing I'm happy about is that at least I know I'm spending my time productively, doing important things :). That's why I say, physically drained, but mentally joyful :).

Truly, the spirit is always willing but the flesh will always be weak. God, give me strength! :)

No food and drink!

Its been so long since I last packed dinner to work and bring home the same pack of dinner -_-.

Today was so busy!

I didn't quite expect a Saturday afternoon shift to be this busy. Seriously I have no idea what I was really busy with. I guess on a Sat where everyone is not around, I spend more time looking for people on the phone to inform and running up and down, executing orders caused by all the abnormalities.

Ever since I really started working after my training, I've already learnt how to work better. Every afternoon shift, no matter how busy, I'll some how have time to eat. I guess timing wise all the work came at the wrong time today. Grr..

The sudden surge of workload left me running around, panicking like a headless chicken.

I hope this will not happen again! And mind you, its a Saturday! I expected more rest on a Sat okay. This reflects badly on me la :(.

I speculate at this rate I carry on, I may just develop some gastrointestinal disorders. I should go see a doctor and get a steady supply of Omeprazoles or Famotidine as a preventive measure to protect my stomach eh?

The best preventive measure right now, SLEEP. :)

"Good afternoon ladies and gentlemen...."

MY PRESENTATION IS FINALLY OVER!!! Phew! :).

Best part: CEO didn't turn up. Hehe :D.

The who's whos were still around, but at least the CEO wasn't there to bombard us with a whole load of questions.

So without the CEO, there was like only 2 questions! And a very nice, encouraging comment :)

Honestly speaking, my legs were trembling when I speak though I sounded machiam I'm very well prepared. My gosh. The crowd was much bigger than I expected, but really thanks to the girls who came down to show their support. I was looking at them throughout my whole presentation can. Just for "visual" support :D.

Thank God, at the very end of the presentation, the director of a certain department came forward and congratulated us for the good presentation. She said that we, even though we are still very new, took the guts and presented well. And man, I really felt good about it! :).

Alright, minus the part that my legs were really trembling like mad behind the stand, but all in all I was still quite pleased with my own performance (though I know I could do better). I sound odd in the mic la :S.

And yes, girls, we all did well!! Our hard work is paid off :)! Yayy!! :):):)

Oh, did I mention, I was down with a bad tummyache after the whole presentation. I wonder was it due to the fact that I actually forgot to go for break for the entire shift, or was it a PTSD (drama la! :D).

Loss.

Just one day alone, I experienced 2 deaths. Both were uncalled for, very asymptomatic and rather sudden. Nobody quite expected it, and sighs, it was such a loss.

I can't say, "life is short" as both are people who lived a long ripe life. But I have to say, life can be so fragile. One moment I still see her sitting on the chair, next moment.....

Things always happen when you least expected them to, isn't it?

Sighs. God bless both of them. I said a short prayer for them when I left. Both families are prepared, but still, sudden. May all things be okay for them..

Alright, on a lighter note, my big presentation is on Wednesday, whereby all the bigbig shots and the who's whos will sit in. I'm NOT really prepared, but what to do right? :S. Haha. I'm only thankful its not an individual presentation.

So at 2am, I'm up to finish up the final touches of my presentation and do my "script" on handheld cards for that day. Pls pray for me!!