The reality of life.

Its a nice, cool Sunday morning.

Felt reluctant to report for duty. I wish I was day off today so that I can have a goood loong sleep. But nah, reality can be quite cruel sometimes.

So today was pretty alright. Felt a little sorry for my batch girl cuz she was being scolded by my employer today. I think, if I were her, I would have cried too. It can be a real struggle to carry on. I had similar experiences when I just started out. When I was new and naive, thinking that everything can be simple. But the ugly world revealed to me likewise. I've learnt it the hard way, but at least, I learnt.

Thank God that I could be around when she was sad. I mean, if at such times, u can't even find a friend, its really painful..

That's besides the point.

Today, while having my break, a colleague of mine (HC) revealed to me something that, in my opinion, was pretty shocking. She told me something that another colleague of mine did (NH) and I was really horrified. I couldn't believe that she actually IS such a person. Of cuz, I told her that I'll observe myself, and was thankful that I had someone like her to warn me of such people.

The only thing that I'm quite disgusted about (sorry for being so harsh), is that NH really don't present herself like what HC said.

2nd encounter with people like that -- Nice on the outside, but before you know it, turn her back against u in front of your employer.

Such, is the reality of life.

I feel so sad. This world is so fallen. I mean, imagine as part of God's creation, I'm already feeling sad about my own counterparts (human), what about God?

Oh wells.

Then work ended. I was reflecting about my day and I felt that I don't really belong. I was reminded of what I told B ytd when I was consoling him cuz he was also feeling the same way with his colleagues.

I told him, that there're just some people whom u can click with at the very first moment. But likewise, there's always the opposite group of people, whom u can talk and talk but find that its plain shallow, and these people will forever be that group call "acquaintance".

I felt the same. I'm glad that I still have a couple of colleagues in my workplace whom I can call "friends". However today, I'm working with that bunch of people whom, I think, I will list them as "acquaintance" for now.. (Except my batch girl la.)

I feel like I'm going through mid-life crisis prematurely. Aye.

I've just finished watching my favourite drama series on Youtube :). If only drama can come true, isn't it? I'd love to be married and be so in love all the time, just like in the show...

GO SLEEP LA!