ARRRGHH..

I'M ON DUTY THIS WEEKEND AGAIN!!
I'M ON DUTY NEXT WEEKEND AGAIN!!
AND I'M ON WEEKEND NIGHT YET AGAIN!!!

WHAT THE HELL.

This is just crap la. When can I EVER get another weekend off?!?!?!?

As if this is not enough, yet another thing to Argh about:

MY OH IS OVERSEAS ON V-DAY!! :'(.

I'm certainly looking like the baby in the picture, albeit more less cute. Er hem. Sighs.

I feel that my life is so sad. Hahaha. But NEVERMIND. I'll probably go for an ex colleague's wedding, then maybe da bao some nice makan back for my another colleague who's on call if time permits :). V-day is not just about me and OH, but everyone around me too ;). Hehe.

Okay Cin, stop whining, go and sleep. Tmr is AM shift....... (SIAN)

WEEKEND ON AGAIN

Grrrrrr. I keep having to work on weekends! I hate this :(.

For how many weekends I've been working alr. But I don't want to request, cuz if I keep requesting weekends off, I won't get the chance to take the off next time lo.

Request also no use la. I requested a day off for 16th cuz my other half (OH) is off. THEN I was scheduled to go for some talk and be an usher, given official hours somemore. Best.

Grrrr.. I just want more weekends off, or at least give me one off one AM shift or something like that la. Very sad. Especially when my OH is a 5-day workweek person! Hmmm :(

Ahh just want to whine. Going to sleep soon. Yes tmr is Saturday and I'm working AM shift. While everyone is snoozing their heads off and waking up late, I've gotta be up at 4.45am to prepare. ARGH!!!! >_<

Complain complain! >_<

Nobody wants to read my blog no more :(

HELLO EVERYONE! Sorry for the LOoooOoooooooOOOoong delay. If Junyuan haven't told me, I wouldn't have realised that I haven't been blogging for 1 month +! Man!

To think I used to blog like twice a day? HAHA :D Silly silly me.

For the past one month, basically I've been rather busy. Many things have happened. I've been writing notes on Facebook instead cuz I can write them on the go, using Facebook Mobile via my HP. For those who doesn't have FB, summary:

- Thanks to all ur prayers. My aunt decide to pull the plug since my cousin was certified brain dead. So yepps. He left peacefully la.

- New year was spent camping with my other half, and had lots of fun!

- CNY reunion dinner, brought him to show mommy, and mommy seem to like him :). Hehe.

- CNY day 1 went to grandma's place. Mixed feelings, dealing with a loss and yet an inclusion to the family. Its odd. But everything brought us closer, which is good to a certain extent..

- Apart from these special occasions, I've been basically working hard in my workplace still. Still slogging hard to deliver the best I can :D. And still complaining alot, as usual. Hehe.

That's so much about my life since the last post.

To everyone, Happy Niu Year :).

I will try to update more la :D. Hahaha. So sorry!

Miracles...

Thanks for all your prayers. If you were following my Facebook blog, you may have noted about my cousin's incident. Thank God, his condition has got SLIGHT improvements. Just slight. At least the BP and ICP has stabilised more or less, and he's no longer having a fever. Of cuz, we're all hoping for miracles to happen :). PRAY!

Am thankful also, that the drunk driver (ARGH! SCREW HIM!!!) got caught. As to what sentence, I'm not too sure. It better be a heavy sentence. He better come to the neuro ICU and have a good look at what he has done to an innocent life. He ought to feel guilty..

Well, I'm just hoping good things will happen, and will continue to happen. I'd rather he wakes up and rehab for 1 yr back to at least 75% of premorbid status than to stay like that... Of cuz medically we know that may be impossible, BUT, we shall see :)

Sad things aside, I'm still quite excited over a new inclusion in my life: a Lenovo s10 laptop!!! :)

(I lazy to take photos la :D)

After hunting for months and contemplating over a Kohjinsha laptop, Asus Eee PC and many other mini laptops, I finally decide to get this Lenovo S10 after getting my bonus (which is like peanuts?!), and I'm loving it! :)

Its not REALLY very small, but considerably small la (10" only :)!). I love how sleek it is and the best part, I got a free upgrade of RAM to 2.5GB and a free laptop bag! :D. The only thing now is, I REALLY NEED THE MICROSOFT OFFICE. Any kind souls? :).

Now I'm trying to back up my things in a little thumb drive of mine, and I think I'm really silly looking. Forget it, I shall hunt for a portable HD! :D

The only flaw about this laptop is the keyboard. Its already bigger compared to other mini laptops, but I have a problem typing the ! cuz I kept typing @ instead of ! :D. Haha. The mini laptop with one of the most impressive keyboards is HP mini, but wells I don't like the spects so nahh :D. Haha.

Okay I shall go to bed alr. My whole Christmas is ruined by a stupid shitty roster, so I really need my beauty sleep now! :D

Unpredictable

For the 3rd time in this month, I'm hearing about friends/family of ppl I know passing on..

Today I just found out that David Ho, the doc who got crashed in the coach at Malaysia, is someone my friend knows.. How sudden eh?

Its like, today u see this person alive and kicking. He/She's probably having coffee with you, laughing and reminiscing over the past. Next thing you know, you receive news that this friend of you has passed away due to __________ (fill in the blanks).

For 3 times this month, I hear things like this happening to ppl around me.

I guess this really teaches us to be a better friend/family to people around us? Life can be so unpredictable isn't it? U never know what can happen to this person. For all u know, after this post I may meet a car accident and be in critical condition. (God forbids) I mean, you really will never know.

How scary. Its so difficult for a mother to conceive and gestate for 9months and squeeze like mad to make a baby. But on the contrary, it takes only ONE cause (RTA, cancer, etc) to contribute to the death of a person, in a split second.

Life is REALLY so unpredictable..

I thank God I'm still alive and kicking, still able to do whatever I like.

God, I pray for Your peace to be in all these 3 people whom I know, who've lost someone dear to them. May Your peace that surpass all understanding envelope them, and give them the strength they need to move on. Amen.

"Professionalism"

With regards to my previous post, thanks for all the concern. Eventually I DID get to sit in my supervisor's office, but not for what happened that day. In fact, whatever happened that day seem to have gone with the wind. She didn't say a single thing. Nobody said a single thing, in fact.

So, I was being ticked at for being too childish. Grrr.

Feedback from the ground:

"Orh! She's that childish girl right!"
"Too kiddy."
"Too jumpy."
"Too giggly."

I made a face when she told me that I need to be more professional when I put on the uniform. In fact, I looked down and pout. I hope she didn't see it, though :D.

Aiya, I'm acting my age what. Nobody can deny the fact that I'm STILL, the youngest in my department. I'm not even 21! In fact, I just turned 20 today! (Happy birthday to me. HAHA.) I'm still full of zest and youth :D. Why must I act old? :(

There's a stark difference between professionalism and youth, in my opinion. Okay la, I admit sometimes I do jump around too much. But that's only sometimes ma... Not like I always jump around in front of my clients or their relatives -_-. I mean, I know when to do the right thing. Or at least I THINK I know.

Perhaps its my turn to reflect on myself. :D

Yes yes yes. PRRROOOOfesionalism okay.... Bahh!

AGAIN.

For the nth time in these 3 weeks, my name has been appearing in the "message book" of my work place, been called up on my hp at least 2 times by my supervisor and has sat in my supervisor's office for "coffee" at least 3 times...

Message book is like the forum of my workplace. Everything that u want to highlight to the department will be written in the message book. Messages will be passed down every shift to ensure EVERYONE knows what's the latest happenings.

Anyways something happened again and I was called up by my supervisor on my way home. Scared the poop outta my life. I'm almost certain my name is in the message book, and my supervisor's office will be my next place to go (again).

I warm up the seat in my supervisor's office before anyone sits on it....

WHY?! I don't understand why am I still making blunders like these u know. Initially I was "made famous" in the message book for documentation errors, fair enough. I've paid up my "fines", I've made ammendments and I've been quite careful.

THEN kena documentation error AGAIN. Corrective actions done. Got scolded bad bad by my own supervisor and another supervisor who chose to publicise my wrong deeds. Sighs. Have been diligently updating my supervisor with happenings in the department whenever she calls and wheverer she asked.

THEN things happen again today! I told her almost everything that happened except for this as I didn't think it was something I need to inform her. Turns out that its a "big issue" and I almost got myself into deep poop. Just thank God the results came back okay, but tmr I'll be receiving a big trashing from my supervisor...

Very demoralising can :(. I already don't know what is considered "important" and what is not now. I'm confused at the things I should tell my supervisor and the things I don't need to. Just because of this one incident, the things that I diligently told sister was perceived as redundant, and I was penalised for that.

Bug also wrong, don't bug also wrong. What am I supposed to do?! How long more will I stop making errors?!

I find that the more I want to prove myself capable and worthy, the more I make mistakes. What is happening???